16 year old Sarasota teen
Hi…….I did not know Brandi very well but I only wish I got to know her better. I would have realized that her and I shared a lot of similarities and fought similar battles. I am 16, I have been a user of opiates (roxy m30s) for almost 3 years now. I also got into crack-cocaine fairly recently. I have done many things I regret…..selling my body for money, selling items of mine that I cherished just to live on, missing my little brothers birthday (along with many other significant events) just to chase that high. I was living for that high and I would go to any limits and lengths to get what I wanted. I have wasted the last 3-4 years of my life. I have let it just pass me by, taking my beautiful life for granted, never really realizing just how much I have to offer and how much of a positive difference I could make in this beautiful world we live in.
This baffle that I, and all other addicts fight, is such a battle that one could NEVER imagine. It is consistent and it is one of the most tremendous journeys I have ever embarked on. I have caused my family and all the people who love me nd care about me most sooo much pain. I have hurt them, let them down time and time again. I have run away, been so aggressive, mean ….. MEAN! …… to those whom I love more than life itself.
I have a very long story and that is not the purpose of this message. I just wanted to let you know that Brandi’s story and Brandi’s wish has truly touched me. It has touched deeper than all of my families attempts to save me from this gigantic hole I have found myself in. As of 2 weeks ago I have been sober. No drugs AT ALL!!!
No drinking AT ALL!!! NOTHING!! I am attending intensive therapy sessions and meeting other kids…..just like me. 🙂 Like Brandi.
At the end of the day I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason and God has a weird way of doing things, but at the end of the day I can be confident that He has everything under control and there is some master plan. Nobody in my family understood that it wasn’t that I was ignoring their attempts or that I didn’t love them or that I didn’t care, or that I wasn’t trying (desperately).
Brandi and her story is what made me realize that the sober lifestyle, freedom from addiction, was what I WANTED. Without a doubt in my mind, I am s000 happy now and I have never been more proud of myself. I am already closer with my family who I love so much. I WANT THIS and I a going to DO IT! I want to show all the other girls, just like me, that it can be done and it is worth the fight.
I am so sorry for your loss and I think that you are truly an amazing woman. You and your family have touched me more than you could ever imagine and I have never even met you guys!!!! it makes me want to cry <3.. .so THANK YOU... .sooooo sooooo sooooooooo much. xoxoxoxo - A letter written to Brandi's Wish Foundation from a beautiful 16 year old Sarasota teen